HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
This year, I am thankful to be spending the day with a group of people that want to be together, not a group that came together out of obligation. I am thankful that I can cook the dishes I love and then take them to someone else's house so there less to clean up later. :-)
I am thankful my job is secure and that my co-workers are such a great group of people to be around all day.
I am thankful for all the people that will talk me out of trees, accept me for my flaws, and bring love into my life.
I am thankful that most days I can just dance ... the rest will work itself out (eventually).
What are you thankful for?
Some people hold a special place in your life long after you think they will. And some people take that place for granted. Others are willing to piss it away for something that is so much less.
So I guess the best thing to do is just set those people free.
You know who you are.
... I'd make you believe, I'd make you forget ...
and I'd sleep a lot better at night
Ever since I can remember, I have craved three things:
1. Stability. The ability to enjoy the now, to be happy with the present, to not be waiting for the better tomorrow, to not feel that tomorrow would be there soon.
2. Security. The ability to know I can stumble because someone will be there to help me back up, that I don't always have to be the hero because someone else will fill the need when I can't, the knowledge that someone else has my back when I stand in front of the punch I know is coming.
3. Sanity. The ability to experience emotions and be understood, to be irrational and accepted, to be scared and be comforted.
Unfortunately, I'm still searching. Thanks to many factors, I'm faced with a myriad of possibilities for moving (read: uprooting and potential loss of employment), home buying (read: settling in much less than our dream home), child bearing (read: oh dear god, am I this old?), family separating (read: best painful thing that could happen), remodeling (read: indulgent waste of money), car buying (read: compromise that leaves no one happy) ... need I go on?
How are you supposed to make decisions about these thing when they are all competing with one another? And when your person is gone?