May 12, 2007

And This ... This Could Be ... The Summer When I Grow Up

It's never been like this
I am just starting over

I guess you have no choice but to grow up when you finally land a "career" ... but I sure as hell don't have to like it. Those painful, "this is what its like to suck it up, drive on, and be an adult" moments are leaving me with a lot of bitterness that I can't quite seem to spit out.

But no one ever promised doing what was best for you in the long run would be pleasant in the moments it takes to get there. (wait, isn't this the same rationale that landed me in DC in the first place?)

My inner clarity is becoming crisper through it all, so maybe it isn't all bad. There are purposes to the things we experience, right?

I will simply have to find a way to block out that knowledge right now. It is so not my style to ignore my heart but what choice do I really have? If I can throw a towel over the clock on the treadmill to get through my workout, I can throw a towel over this too ...

Posted by Princess Cat at May 12, 2007 11:21 AM @ 11:21 AM in Way Down Inside // Permalink | TrackBack

I hear you. Sounds awfully familiar...

Right now I'm in a miserable job that is eating me alive. And my hoped-for career is so close I can taste it. But it's not here yet, and in the meantime I feel like I'm living two different lives.

Posted by: Fbl at May 13, 2007 11:57 PM

It's never easy. Ever. There are always going to be 2 sides to the sword. There IS a purpose to everything we experience. Wish I had some answers for ya. The best I can offer is some sun, some sand, and a fru-fru drink with a little umbrella in it. But you gotta get here to get them!

Posted by: HomefrontSix at May 14, 2007 12:05 AM

Getting a career is no excuse for growing up.

Posted by: buckethead at May 15, 2007 04:24 PM