I hate being aware
I hate being able to "read"
I hate being able to see the psychology behind actions
There is nothing I can do to change the situations. No matter how much I scream inside, no matter how much I calmly explain what is going on, the outcome is the same. Vicious cycles of self-destruct and pain go on, unhindered ... waiting to spiral out of control.
People don't want to know they are being read. People want to believe that they are above basic behavioral psychology and complicated enough to be unexplainable.
They usually aren't.
Sometimes there are extenuating circumstances to explain behavior that are not outwardly visible, but for the most part ... people are people. They are motivated by generally similar and basic things, they make decisions in fairly simple and repeatable ways. Unfortunately, the drive for certain needs yields a retardation of the normal processes and people develop "issues" they again don't want to admit exist.
I want so desperately to put people behind my eyes, to save them from themselves, to hold their hand in a new direction ... but I can't.
Despite my own shortcomings and flaws, there are some things you just know you are right about. This is mine.
I want a new thing to be right about. This superpower sucks!
Posted by Princess Cat at August 22, 2006 08:23 PM @ 08:23 PM in Way Down Inside // Permalink | TrackBackMy superpowers are much less interesting. I'll wrtie of them soon.
My superpower is the ability to fill up a gas tank to even dollar amounts without inching my way up from ten cents away like normal people.
Posted by: buckethead at August 29, 2006 02:12 PM